To me silence isn’t that eerie ringing in your ears when you’re standing in the midst of absolute and solitary stillness. To me silence is music.
I wake up early in the morning and the first thing I do before I even get out of bed is put in my airpods. To me music is the most important aspect of my life, I could not live nor survive without it. I spend about 99.98% percent of my day with my airpods in.
Music is like the wall between me and calamity.
My mind is constantly racing with loud, intrusive, and messy thoughts. But the moment I put in my airpods in and shuffle my favorite playlist, it’s like the world suddenly stops. Suddenly I am the only person in my own little world. It’s like I can finally think and hear myself without having to scream over my own thoughts. And that is tranquility to me.
Music is what keeps me sane in a world filled with yelling and screaming. I need it to do pretty much everything it provides me a sense of stillness and stimulation that is just right. There is a song for every emotion I have ever felt and those songs help me release all the negative feelings i’m feeling it relieves me from that burden and calms my entire system.
If I could I would lose myself to it, I’d give up my being in order to just become a music note that strikes every soul that hears it. I’d become a wave of stillness that speaks millions of words in one single note. I’d let music wrap itself around my bones and carve its notes into them, I would fill my mind with every song that has built that wall keeping me safe from calamity.
I cling myself to music and every song or tune that passes my eardrums. I cling to it so tightly in hopes that it will carry me away far away from the eerie ringing in my ears when there is absolutely nothing playing.
Without it I would lose myself to the silence and the wall would break down letting chaos erupt in my mind and wash over my being letting its poison mix with my blood and kill me slowly. No I am not being dramatic.
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