Graduation is probably the one event that has the potential to both completely destroy me, and allow me the freedom I’ve always craved.
For me graduation means the end of the only thing I’m familiar with. I’m not ready to move on and be completely independent. Even though I often hate the situation I’m in and tend to dislike those around me, knowing they are here is comforting in a way.
I’m scared of what will happen between me and those I really care about once I finally get to leave. I’ve wanted this for so long but I never took a moment to think about how it would play out when I don’t get to see them everyday.
I rely heavily on my loved ones, more than I could ever admit to them personally. Without them I don’t know who I am or how to function. If I can't even be without them now, the thought of having to live without them permanently is terrifying.
I’ve grown too attached to things I promised I would never let myself like. The end of our time together could mean the end of my stability.
Even though I am dreading graduation, I’m also very excited to get to move on. Leaving here and starting over sounds beyond refreshing. I want to meet new people and learn to be a better person in an environment I’ve never seen before. Graduation means the end of an era that I’ve grown familiar with, and hello to one that will allow me to live with weakened restraints.
The excitement of this day will never outweigh the things I’m dreading. I hope when the day does come I’ll be prepared enough to move on happily without too many regrets or fears.
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