7-Aby L: Never Been Picked

Never Been Picked. Never experienced the joy of giving someone you love a small gift. Never had the type of love where just another day felt so magical just because you had someone. I remember in 3rd grade giving out fun-dip or little cards with hearts and sparkles. I remember being told "only bring something if there is enough for the whole class". Only ever given a Valentine because it was a rule to bring one for everybody. Since elementary school valentines day has had no significance, no meaning,nothing exciting about it. Three years of highschool, not one Valentines day spent with someone who meant something to me. Simply just another day. So bleak, so boring. So utterly depressing. I was never asked to be someone's valentine, I was never pretty enough, never smart enough, simply just wasn't enough to the boys at school. I wasn't popular, I wasn't the girl they all dreamed of getting a chance with. I was funny and I gave them the answers. Nothing more nothing less. Never being enough even for one dumb day hurt, it made the day seem so pointless to me. I couldn't fathom why so many people saw this day as something so amazing, I couldn't understand what was so special about it and why I was one of the few people who hated it so deeply. I hated Valetines day. I have hated it for longer than I can remember. I've wanted to skip over this day every year. That is until someone could prove I was something special, something important, something meaningful to them. I finally felt the importance of being loved, being appreciated, being wanted. After all the love I've given out, the love I've expressed, I'm finally receiving it. It may sound like such a small thing, something so insignificant, but now knowing the excitement behind a day where you can be as cringe, as clingy, as cheesy as you want. The feeling of being able to plan a day around one person. Around spending the day with one person. A person who is important and beautiful to you. Your person. 17 years of valentines days 5 years of possibilities to spend the day with someone. Every chance missed, until now. Such a hallmark consumer holiday, something I hated for so long. Something I never thought would seem so important and beautiful to me. Valentine's day has finally become something I'm looking forward to. Spending a idiotic holiday with someone I find so enchanting, seems like a win to me. Finally a win. Word Count:427